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Comical conversationalist queen :) |
Sometimes the greatest blessing comes when you least expect it. As of late and like any young woman my age I often wonder what am I going to do with my life in the later future. I have my dreams and ambitions like anyone and the closer I get to fulfill them the farther they seem to be. Then I realize that maybe I'm not ready yet and maybe it is because I need a little more practice. The greatest virtue is perhaps patience and while it is hard to bear at time, if it is tried and true good things will eventually come of it. Then out of the blue after wondering a revelation came in the simplest form. I ran into this girl the other day and she has a lot of difficulties with social interaction. She can talk just fine, but doesn't know quite how to converse. Conversation can be painfully awkward, forced at times, sometimes she makes jokes that nobody get's, and she makes a difficult attempt to fit in like the corner of a puzzle piece vying for attention in the middle. She is like anyone else yearning to fit in, to seem normal, and belong. I found my revelation within her as she tried to make conversation with me. I saw myself in this painfully shy girl because I had been like her many years ago. before the diagnosis that changed my life. In that moment I realized how far I had come from socially awkward tween to comical conversationalist queen. I do slip up at times in conversations, but I just grin on the inside and think at least I'm having this conversation. Like anyone I do get embarrassed from time to time, but it is only a small mistake that will soon be forgotten. It is in those moments I realize how much I have grown and even though it has been difficult to grow it has been a tremendous learning experiences. Asperger Syndrome as become an unknown gift like the roots that keep the plant grounded. It has become not who I am, but a part of the puzzle of me. It no way defines, but it helps me see that we all have limits. Without limits we would not know who we are as people. Limits keep us grounded, but from time to time they need to be tested. When limits are tested they can be eventually broken and when they're broken new limits are set so that we may all reach our greatest potential.
Thank you for this post. Just like you, I often wonder what I'm suppose to do with my life, but then as I ponder on my life, I realize how much I've grown as a person. I wouldn't have been able to do some of the things I do now, years ago.
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